Whats worse, losing motivation or having no inspiration? Easy. Losing motivation. Finding inspiration is easily achievable for there is inspiration everywhere. From the big oak tree in front of the bus stop I've waited at everyday for the past 5 years, that seems to never age. Or when I notice acts of kindness from strangers. Or the strength my mother possess. Or the never ending love I have for my religion. Inspiration is everywhere, anything can inspire you. Its motivation that's hard to catch and even harder to never let go of. Its what drives us to do the things we may or may not love passionately.

As I've started University this fall, things have just been weird. Weird in the sense I've realized even more just how confused as a person I really am and my lack of identity. This started as a theme earlier during my last year of high school but is now a huge part of my current everyday life and you could say its because I'm a teenager blah blah blah and that its normal to be feeling like this blah blah but my point is, it is happening and its very much burdensome. It's hard trying not to think about it consistently due to the fact my brain keeps nagging at me about the things I use to love, I no longer find the time to do or lack the motivation to do. And whats sadder than losing motivation to do the things you love.