I'd really like to know where this notion that in order to have fun at any social gathering, alcohol must be present. No alcohol, no fun?

There is absolutely no correlation between the two. It really ticks me off people actually think like this. Where is there fun in a beverage that alters your state of mind that more often times than not results in you saying/doing terrible things you'll probably regret the next day, makes you smell like shit, contorts your better judgment etc. And not to mention you end of feeling like crap the following morning.This generation is so messed up its ridiculous honestly, who came up with this?

I got super annoyed at one of my friends the other day and considering I'm a Muslim and her an atheist I am not surprised. The topic of discussion was alcohol. A bunch of friends and I were going to a get-together Friday night after our high school commencement as a reunion sort of since most of us haven't seen each other since summer.

One particular friend suggested to bring alcohol to which I replied can we please not guys. Everyone complied but this friend in question. She kept on asking questions like oh why do you care if we drink? or I'm confused why not? to which I responded explaining to her how I didn't want to be surrounded by the substance  nor did i want the company I keep to be partaking in such activities in my presences because I would feel highly uncomfortable. She goes on to say but you don't have to drink though.. At that point I was actually pretty ticked off, like what part of no alcohol did she not understand? like the other 6 girls did not mind my suggestion and respected my wish, as friends should. And dont get me wrong I'm not trying to seem like controlling person or anything. Had another person said they wanted a beer also, I would have simply let the girls know I wasnt going to be in attendance that night. Like I don't want to ruin other peoples ideas of fun and plus majority rule would have won against my favour and I would proudly walk away.

I'm honestly just trying to better practice my religion and its guidelines and she just didn't understand.
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On another note, commencement was boring and we ended up leaving early to go to K's house and ordered Chinese food and just talked and hung out for a while and we enjoyed ourselves in each others company pretty much. I mean it is possible to have a good times without alcohol. Shocker.


I want to start taking hot yoga classes
How can I help? (Company) 

Words seem to escape me as you stand there weeping.
While I awkwardly take up your space,
Breathing your precious air.
Your shaking legs and tear washed face
Serve no justice to the memories I keep of you
Your sadness floats side by side with mine.
Accept my futile attempts
And forgive my ignorance.
Whats worse, losing motivation or having no inspiration? Easy. Losing motivation. Finding inspiration is easily achievable for there is inspiration everywhere. From the big oak tree in front of the bus stop I've waited at everyday for the past 5 years, that seems to never age. Or when I notice acts of kindness from strangers. Or the strength my mother possess. Or the never ending love I have for my religion. Inspiration is everywhere, anything can inspire you. Its motivation that's hard to catch and even harder to never let go of. Its what drives us to do the things we may or may not love passionately.

As I've started University this fall, things have just been weird. Weird in the sense I've realized even more just how confused as a person I really am and my lack of identity. This started as a theme earlier during my last year of high school but is now a huge part of my current everyday life and you could say its because I'm a teenager blah blah blah and that its normal to be feeling like this blah blah but my point is, it is happening and its very much burdensome. It's hard trying not to think about it consistently due to the fact my brain keeps nagging at me about the things I use to love, I no longer find the time to do or lack the motivation to do. And whats sadder than losing motivation to do the things you love.
"I don't believe in sins. I believe in humans rights." -A friend

At times like these I really wish I had more Muslim friends.  I've had the same one Muslim friend for 7 years now and a total of maybe 8 close friend, all of which are either devout Christians, some sort of branch of Christianity, or Atheist. At first I laughed at this, it was so absurd. Then I realized who had said it and was no longer laughing but instead fairly puzzled and disappointed because I understood the seriousness behind it, the truth. This Plato outlook is not what I want to surround myself with.
Whats the point of relationships? I mean the boyfriend/girlfriend relationships, as in why date? Why date someone if you don't plan to have a lasting relationship with? I mean surely you aren't dating just for the sake of dating right?

Dating in this day and age is pointless, 9 out of 10 times it will lead you to a dead end road. Relationships take a lot of work and a lot of time needs to be invested so why waste all that? I mean if you're dating someone you have no intention of marrying, realistically you are just dating in till your expiry date with that person. You're dating till you find reasons why you shouldn't marry them or you're dating them for all the wrong reasons. I ask myself why do people do this to themselves, like are they lonely or confused or really desperate?

Recently my friend just broke up with her boyfriend because she realized she didn't love him the way he loved her, as in she just only liked his company whereas he told her she was the one he wanted to marry later on in life. That he couldn't picture himself with anyone else. Thankfully they were only dating for 5 months so not a lot of time was invested into this pointless relationship.  My point is dating has become this sort of frozen dessert in our lives for our souls, keeping in mind when we purchase these delicate foods the date in which they expire. The only difference there's no way in knowing the expiry date on your relationship, you'll just have to play to see how things work which most of the time turns out not to be so wonderful.

My other friends sister was living with her boyfriend of 7 years when 3 months they broke up and things are pretty bad for them. There's no hope they're getting back together. They were high school sweethearts. Again time, a lot of time; 7 years is a lot. To have wasted 7 precious years of you life with someone is downright painful. 7 years down the drain? 7 years of commitment in a relationship where neither party members had intentions of marriage in mind? Wow

Why would you do that to yourself? What was the point?

To date in till the expiry date is met is not a way of life, temporary happiness will never prevail over the happiness invested and is well repaid in marriage.
(Forgive me
For the things I
Should have said
But didn’t.

Forgive me
For the things I
Said
But didn’t mean.

Forgive me
For I somehow
Always
Fell
Short of the expectations you had of me)

 I love you and miss you dearly.